But my thoughts you can't decode

Em meio aos meus devaneios pós-dormonid (ou ainda sob o resquício de seus efeitos), descobri o que tem me incomodado tanto (leia este post): eu não quero só cuidar dos outros! Eu quero que alguém cuide de mim também, só para variar. Creio que não é pedir muito.
Minha nova música favorita, que toca over and over again no meu celular - e que tem tudo a ver com meu momento....

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How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
I can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride, no not this time, not this time

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood, but you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own, one my own

(I'm screaming "I love you so" But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
Yeah, yeah
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well
I think I know
I think I know
There is something I see in you
It might kill me
I want it to be true